Friday, July 23, 2010
Bring me overseas for the whole of next week.
I'm going to live like a zombie during week 5. Maybe even after.
What can I say.
Just live each day as it comes.
Now what.
My intonation sucks. My technique sucks. My rhythm sucks. My expression sucks. My memory sucks. Just because I don't say anything doesn't mean that I can't hear myself play inaccurately, with the wrong bowing or whatever.
It doesn't mean that I feel nothing; that I think that I'm the best and that my playing is perfect.
I know.
I have feelings too. And a life. Which I want to start enjoying once more.
But. Life's not about what you want. Nothing goes your way. Because when it does, somebody else would be suffering.
So how can I force it?
the world will turn WILD.
11:36 PM
Friday, July 16, 2010
Sectionals was nerve-wrecking.
I was like shouting all the way until I almost lost my voice. Haha nice work basses, you guys were awesomely loud (Y)
I hope I did alright. But I kind of felt like I was talking to walls or something. It's really hard to continue when there's almost zero response to what I say. How to survive till SYF?? DDD: WE SHALL WORK HARD TOGETHER AND PRACTISE!!
From now on, I shall faithfully respond when the teacher asks, "Any questions?" during lessons :)
I'm seriously freaking out over next week's assessment :( I don't want to lose my post after only taking it up for one week - WTH?!
For the next few weeks, I'm practisting till my fingers drop off. Then I'll sew them back one by one and start the cycle again.
Okay GROSS ALERT.
But I'm really going to DILGENTLY PPRACTISE. At least until I grow blisters. Hope this drive lasts me through this period.
the world will turn WILD.
11:25 PM
Friday, July 9, 2010
Okay I don't know what to say for Chinese oral.
Can't believe it's so similar to my mock-oral topic! But I actually rather have a topic I've never seen before so weird. And the examiners kept laughing. Was it anything that I said that was so hilarious?? Omg and seeing them laugh I ended up laughing as well so retarded.
FAREWELL DDD: I AM SADDED. Almost cried during some of the powerpoints ): I'm missing the awesome green badges already!
Thanks so much for the notes and gifts :) I really appreciate them. Now I'm really starting to feel the stress. GWH. DIE DIE DIE. Every letter I received mentioned it. I can't believe I'm starting to feel stressed already. I shall try my best to lead the section well. Can't let the seniors down!
The videos are gonna take ages to upload. Dang.
the world will turn WILD.
10:14 PM