Friday, July 23, 2010
Bring me overseas for the whole of next week.
I'm going to live like a zombie during week 5. Maybe even after.
What can I say.
Just live each day as it comes.
Now what.
My intonation sucks. My technique sucks. My rhythm sucks. My expression sucks. My memory sucks. Just because I don't say anything doesn't mean that I can't hear myself play inaccurately, with the wrong bowing or whatever.
It doesn't mean that I feel nothing; that I think that I'm the best and that my playing is perfect.
I know.
I have feelings too. And a life. Which I want to start enjoying once more.
But. Life's not about what you want. Nothing goes your way. Because when it does, somebody else would be suffering.
So how can I force it?
the world will turn WILD.
11:36 PM
